so i thought i had changed. turns out whatever microscopic changes that happened, were for the worse.
nagging? judging? looking down the nose and acting all hypocritical..
*sigh*
next course of action would be to repent and not do it anymore... but has the damage been done?
"you can't jump into the swimming pool without getting wet"
if i could turn back time, i would so that i woulnd't have said what i said, or acted what how i did, but i can't. and i think i might have impaired another friendship again *double sigh*
for the friendship that i thought was lost, has since been restored, and i'm extremly grateful for that -never knew how much it meant
the friendships that began long ago and lasted over a decade (one 15 years, the other 10 years), my dearest Shern Ai, Wai Ying and Pei San. though we went into "hibernation", the mere once-off gathering reactivated the whole thing. honestly i miss your prescence, your comforting words, your hilarious actions, all the teasing that went around, the honesty taht was so evident.
Kui Tien with eyes that twinkled with mischief, used to participate in de nonsensical discussions, teased me to bits, but always looked out for me. the wise words that came out from his serious and humble side made an impression. who could forget the moments we had especially with Jason, in the labs-the two mad scientist at work *hahahaha* even later when we grew up and parted ways, you always looked out for me. now you've gone away to start a new life elsewhere and i wish you all the best.
God knows, i really really miss you guys a lot.
of course the friendships that i've forged here.
my 2 housemates, su wen & vivian -took care of me, music coming from every room, hanging out, all the talks etc
chris, ben and gary - you guys have seen me serious and crazy, crying and doubling over with laughter. kept me in check when necessery and making sure that i'm alright. all the fights, and chats at McD, mamak and whereever else.
syaima - the laughing pill (in my case lar), one who inspires you to be more fit and one who will come to your defence when needed
mau ren & kiki - poking fun and protecting each other, your caring for me is cherished. you guys never fail to put a smile on my face.
ji keon, sue wern, shehara - make me do my best, help me see things in a different light, never afraid of standing by me or giving a gentle reprimand. plus your warmness is cherished
min chiee and sisca - my two huggies :) you watch out and love me.
jia lin, joo, fitri - though i wasn't exactly in ur circle, thanks for accepting me in
DOTA gang- yes i dislike being the noob and i hate being pawned endlessly. but all in all, we had great fun
my COP cell and friends - ShaeLynn, Wei Ming, Bing and kids, Tommy, Hui Lai, Alyssa, Shien, Agnes, Wan Yean, Naresh, William, Christopher, Tracy, Alvin Ong, Tze Shuen, Tze Yang, Han Ten, Nicholas, Samuel, Charles, Alicia and baby Nathan, Diana, Dah Ching and baby Neko.
thank you
