DREAMS

they've been a wonderful part of my life especially these past few days
they offer you a world of fantasy where your unspoken wishes and deepest desires come alive
they give you a refuge to turn into when things seem to be going bad
they allow you to see the cold world thru rose tinted glasses
but they're called dreams for a reason
they're only a momentory trip down dreamland
they're short lived
they can't be part of reality unless the Master Planner designs it so
no matter how enjoyable the dream is, how close it is to reality, how strong the joy of wishes being fulfilled is......nevertheless, they're still dreams
you can't force them on life if life doesn't want it

so yup..the recent trip to dreamland was good but now it's time to step out into reality and become a normal girl again
it's all for the better i suppose.
this way i can focus on my studies [ what with assignments, exams and VIA this sem...i'll need all the help i can get]
i can also be a friend to all those who need me...after all friendship at this point in time is more fulfilling than dreams, plus friendship is a better partner with reality when compared to dreams :p

strangely enough, the curtains falling down on this dream was not heart wrenching.
it wasn't traumatizing nor depressing
the dream was short but despite it ending, the whole experince was like sucking the honey from the sting
in short it wasn't like my past trips to dreamland cuz i actually felt calm and serene when i realised the truth and opted back for reality

i can honestly belive GOd's hand was somewhere with me during this ordeal cuz it's like the quiet, the peace that never endeth
when i told wai ying bout what happened last year, she was honestly amazed that i was still surviving for given the circumstances, other ppl would be scarred for life..twas at that moment, i could see clearly God's hand in that situation, guiding me and healing my wounded soul.
i honestly belive that if it weren't for God's grace, i would never have made it through this far

yeah i've got loads to be thankful for. now i've just gotta straighten out my priorities and keep my eyes on You. to all those who've been praying for me, here's my heartfelt thanks.