In retrospect

One thing that I've learnt this past few months is that God never gives up on you.
People can hurt you, friends may not be there for you, circumstances may be against you..
but through it all, He is there.

Though it's depressing to leave the building without anyone actually being grateful for your presence
Though it's so lonely walking the road less taken, watching others experience stuff that you might never have
Though the future seems so very scary, and i don't want to move forward cuz i'm freaking scared of what is to come, of being alone, of being deemed incompetent and putting people's lives in danger,
Though at times it hurts so much, when you're in the wilderness... and you're screaming for dear life on the inside but no one is there...

God is there.

Just like that night when i planned to give up, bitterness anger and hurts all rolled in one -God was there
*someone was definitely praying for me that day!*
In the angst filled months before,
In the turmoil laden days after,
God was there, keeping me safe, watching out for me.

And i guess, that this weekend's camp reminded me of that.
God is there with me, just like in "footprints"
and He definitely knows when to cheer me up.
*like today, was a wee despondent but came home to find a mail from a dear friend*
reminded me of His goodness and grace
just like the song "Higher Ways" - *which i'd strongly encourage you to hear*