the day before the exams

i must be the only person in the world who chills by listening to Christmas music -.-"
but that's what i'm doing now
esp when the exams start tmrw....

but listening to the carols, in a soft jazz like manner helps
reflecting on His awesomeness =)

i want to play with Nathan!! walk by the beach with a gentle breeze!! talk and laugh with the guys!!
be in Christmas service!!
anything to reduce my rapid heartbeat, to quell the anxiety, to help me sleep
worst part is i promised myself, Dad, Dr Vanessa and Dr Siva that i wouldn't take antihistamines at all
soooo dear God help!