am in Melb now for the 2 compulsory rotations. now doing aged care in Dandenong hosp (35-45min bus ride)- it's pretty slack for now. but i can't get over how different it is to malaysia and JB in particular. everything from patients, documentation, clerking to housemanship/internship is very different here. there's more paperwork here.. and things are so different that i wonder how i would survive internship here in such lonely, and strange circumstances.
good thing bout melb is cheap fruits=), hall's internet, the efficient public transport, and unpolluted nature. just walking outside- one can easily spot Orion, and the moon!!! it's freaking gorgeus.. evvery time i walk outside around the halls, i'm in awe- soaking in the awesomness of nature. and the song "this is my Father's world" echoes in my head.
downside is the loneliness.
i miss home often. turns out that the day i landed here, my granduncle (whom i considered to be sort of my substitute grandpa- both my grandpa's died when i was small, only memories remain of them) died.
thought i had got colder emotionally. medicine does teach you how to compartmentalize everything and put on a "i'm-fine" face. but somehow, i've realised a lot of things esp life and pertaining to my walk with God- it's like suddenly i got a new pair of glasses...
honestly, i'm scared. i have no clue where to apply for internship much less be a competent doctor (rather doubtful about that at the moment). can't believe that ppl will trust me with their lives in a few months time... but before i left, i met one of my former teachers who told me "i believe you can do it"
*still cry whenever i rmbr that - cuz i wonder what can she possibly see in me that can cause her to so confidently say that ..even with everything's that happened*
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- I'd love to be nameless but i can't thanks to my friends :P People know me as Anna. So i'm Ann-onymous !!! Currently studying in the healthcare sector. Unusual and wacky.. that's me. Often the only person who will laugh suddenly for apparently no reason in the lecture theater. Passionate about nature and music. Contradictory at times, but that's because i'm still attempting to find myself in this chaos.