An update

am in Melb now for the 2 compulsory rotations. now doing aged care in Dandenong hosp (35-45min bus ride)- it's pretty slack for now. but i can't get over how different it is to malaysia and JB in particular. everything from patients, documentation, clerking to housemanship/internship is very different here. there's more paperwork here.. and things are so different that i wonder how i would survive internship here in such lonely, and strange circumstances.

good thing bout melb is cheap fruits=), hall's internet, the efficient public transport, and unpolluted nature. just walking outside- one can easily spot Orion, and the moon!!! it's freaking gorgeus.. evvery time i walk outside around the halls, i'm in awe- soaking in the awesomness of nature. and the song "this is my Father's world" echoes in my head.

downside is the loneliness.
i miss home often. turns out that the day i landed here, my granduncle (whom i considered to be sort of my substitute grandpa- both my grandpa's died when i was small, only memories remain of them) died.
thought i had got colder emotionally. medicine does teach you how to compartmentalize everything and put on a "i'm-fine" face. but somehow, i've realised a lot of things esp life and pertaining to my walk with God- it's like suddenly i got a new pair of glasses...

honestly, i'm scared. i have no clue where to apply for internship much less be a competent doctor (rather doubtful about that at the moment). can't believe that ppl will trust me with their lives in a few months time... but before i left, i met one of my former teachers who told me "i believe you can do it"

*still cry whenever i rmbr that - cuz i wonder what can she possibly see in me that can cause her to so confidently say that ..even with everything's that happened*