Unwanted Metamorphosis

turning into someone or something that i don't want to be
this wasn't supposed to happen
in the pursuit of attempting to change my physical self...
i've betrayed the real me
betrayed my family
betrayed my friends
worse still i betrayed Him
i promised myselff that it wasn't going to happen
i even made myself check everything
and now....history repeats itself

i now know why things were the way it was like last week..

amazing how things can immediately change within a minute or so...
the happy story can change to a tragedy with a few words

the damage is done
the poison has sunk in
the scar is there
u can't turn back time and
as much as i wanted to...
i can't

and the worst is " you can't bring back someone from the dead with a SORRY"