Breakthrough

The title says it all.

The breakthrough came on Sunday morning at church
Initially, for the practice session it was very tough to be part of the worship team when one isn't right with GOD
how do you lead people into worship when you yourself have backslidden and haven't been spending time with GOD??
and from the beginning of the 5 minute service countdown, when those words appeared on the screen, i spoke it out and the conviction started.
held out as long as i could, but the gentle nudging grew stronger and stronger until it was a loud, insistent murmur that kept ringing and wouldn't go away.
and so, by the end of the 5 minute countdown, the walls of pride, anger and bitterness broke,
and the Comforter helped me to surrender it all

Then, Ps Dave took the pulpit and he preached.
What he spoke that day, pierced my heart through and through.
It was as if YOU were speaking to me directly,
with every word, You made this cold stony heart to be warm and alive again,
and it was clearly seen during ministry time worship where You gave me the grace to worship You again

Thank You Counsellor
Thank You LORD
Thank You Father
and also thank you to all those who prayed for me


On a another note (but kinda related to the one above)
Due to certain traumatic incidents that happened recently, there have been deep painful wounds that festered each day, and caused me to be grumpy and bite everyone back
but GOD's been doing work in those areas, and hard as it may seem, He's teaching me to let go and forgive
Many say that the past is the past, and we'd be better off if we forget about it
Easier said than done
But GOD's healing hand has allowed me to begin again
I'm able to do work again.
Have gone to clinic to finish up my logbook.
Have spent time with close friends, seeing things in a whole new perspective, and understanding how much they care about me
Have some time to just be alone and be with HIM

so yeah.
having said all that, this hols must be my busiest hols ever =P
anyhow shall close now.
love you all loads.
will see you soon